We're preparing for your funeral. Me, Neil, Gav, Ter, Micky, Rick and Franko. .. it's surreal and I don't like it. The girls. They're planning and organizing and looking after us. Steph is taking care of you. I just can't... I cannot comprehend how this happened. Why are we doing this. Why are we all in so much pain. I wish Kaz and everyone could have saved you. We had so much more to do.